2 U

You once came to my life and it seemed that our lives could go along parallel paths for quite a long time. However, now it is pretty clear that they are following completely different paths as our destiny has lead us to different worlds. I have learnt, just after realising, once more, how marvellous you are, that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, no matter how much energy I put on it, we cannot be together.

And this breaks my heart into a million pieces, it just brings back the black hole in my soul and it makes all the other things in my life suddenly vanish into the black hole. After all, that is the point about black holes, they suck everything at an incredible speed. Just two seconds after leaving you in Greenwich, I was missing you to death and the black hole in my soul was back in my stomach, my eyes were overrun with tears and nothing, nothing in my whole world, had any sense.

Now it should be time to find someone else to whom say good morning every morning when I wake up, with whom drink tea, whose hand to hold and whose heart to discover. However, I know that this search cannot be successful, because whatever I find it will have an unsurmountable drawback: she will not be you.